I'm writing you because I had some bad experiences this morning that hurt me. I know I didn't respond well to them. A matter of fact I really didn't respond at all. I know I'm not to overreact or react in such a way that causes others to feel neglected, but I felt so hurt that I let it get the best of me. Instead of lashing out, doing as they did to me, or bringing it to their attention that what they did in fact hurt me which I know I should have, I remained silent. I kept to myself. I thought a lot about You and what You have taught me, and although You taught me to not allow my emotions to get the best of me they did. So as I usually do when hurt by people I shut down in order to not hurt as I was hurt. But I know what I didn't do or didn't say still caused hurt because I shut them out. I could say to You Father, "but dad," they did this to me, they did that to me, but what would it resolve? Absolutely nothing. So I will ask for Your advice and the insight You have through so many personal experiences with so many people.
Father, You know me so well. You know my every molecule. I am by far a perfect person by any stretch of imagination, but I know You have given me a pure heart towards You. Please help me to react in a healthy and influencing way towards others that I am surrounded by and doing life with. Those who do not know me, help me to be open and willing to share with them. Those who rarely understand me, help me to be at peace to let them in then they can understand me. Above all Father, help me not to close myself off from others when I feel hurt but please remind me that I do life with hurting people. I live in a hurting world, and I need to expect to get hurt from time to time. But in those moments, help me to not hurt back even if that hurt comes from my silence. Father, I thank You for always being there and knowing me unlike anyone will ever know me. Your presence and Your words are so soothing to me. They give me peace and give me rest. They guide me, and protect me. They even strengthen me when I am weak. Thank you for loving me the way You do.
P.S. Thank You so much for what You did for me this morning. Without You I could not have made it with time to spare and energy to engage others. I love You Father.